The end of an era

I realise I haven’t been writing for a while now. I needed to sort things in my head, it was and sometimes still is such a mess. Using tools and techniques I learned at the retreat, trying to incorporate the thinking into my daily routines, trying to keep my head above the water when I felt like sinking into an emotional spiral again, keeping close contact to the wonderful friends I made at the retreat. In short – I was busy ;-). Continue reading

The talk or What now?

Yesterday it was the day of ‘the talk’. Gosh, I was so nervous! Unbelievably nervous. I woke up at 5am, wide awake, heart racing. I tried to distract myself but it seemed impossible to get anything done. I finally resorted to doing some meditation. This helped me to calm down and by about 7am I was able to get ready for work.

The day passed slowly. Not only had he not texted yet on where and when to meet, even though he said he would do it, I didn’t do myself any favours and let my mind run wild. A good friend of mine, who I work with, took me aside and had a word ;-). Continue reading

Unexpected turn of events

The story with friend guy continues, even though I am not sure for how much longer. If you haven’t read my previous posts, just to recap: we met in November, went on two dates and then he told me, that he wasn’t into dating right now but would like to stay friends. Since then we went out quite a number of times, spent time at each other’s places, cooked dinners and always had a fabulous time. I genuinely enjoy his company, and I think he enjoys mine.

So it was a natural decision to ask him to be my +1 at a friend’s wedding, which took place the last weekend. Continue reading

Oops, I did it again…

It’s been a while, and I started to get worried that I got out of practice. But last week I did it again (whoop) – I went on my first date since I called a break in August!

To my relief, I was not out of practice – I must say the date went really well. Who would have thought that there are nice men around after all?! I know, I should not jinx anything yet, but only the fact that I had a lovely evening gives me hope! Continue reading

Universe, listen…!

‘The universe will sort it!’ – Have you ever been told this?

My friend Sue keeps saying this to me, usually when I moan again that I do not meet the right man or no man or anything else does not work out the way I was hoping to. Then she says, in all seriousness, that I would not do it the correct way. I would have to visualise whatever I want, I would have to say it out loud, and then just send it off. To the universe. As simple as that… Ha ha!

It makes me laugh every time. And as much as I would love to believe in this, I just don’t. I can’t. Don’t get me wrong, I try to pretend I do, to maybe trick the universe as I don’t want to upset it and hence ignore my requests, but really…?! Continue reading

I need a break

I am back from holidays. What a great time I had, no worries, enjoying every day, no thought wasted on men. Really! I do love those holidays, which ground you again and make you realise what is important in life and what is just added weight.

My resolution: I will not go on any dates in August, I need a break! I need to revisit my approach on how to find Mr Right, and most importantly I need to relax again. My search in the last months has caused too much distress and upset, wasted tears and energy. I do not want to and cannot go on like this. I know, this sounds rather serious, but I mean it. Fingers crossed I will be able to stick to it. There must be a fun way of dating. I remember it being fun and exciting not too long ago. Is there such a thing as ‘date surfeit’? Continue reading