It has been a while since I wrote last, and this post will be short. It is now 5 months ago that I tried to put my deep pain into words. My world broke apart and I shattered into pieces, and I have since tried to put myself back together, bit by bit, shell by shell.Continue reading
Firstly, I am still trying to make sense of this and process it all, so please bear with me if I am rambling on. And if you want to read something cheerful right now, better leave this post for another day. Continue reading
Over the last few weeks I felt a melancholy creeping up again. This feeling of anxiety, that something is up. Some issue I can’t pinpoint yet, but something that I know will hit straight into my heart. Continue reading
Firstly, apologies for not writing more this year. Eek! I was a bit caught up, and – admittedly – didn’t focus very much on some of the things I love doing. I promise to be better (and more selfish) in the new year. But a lot has happened and I needed some time to adjust and get my head around the new situation. Continue reading
Friends are important. I couldn’t do without them. They play such a big role in my life, and sometimes they are my saviours.
Every now and then I battle with self doubts, and I question everything I do, every turn and direction I take. Continue reading
It’s now been nearly two months that someone calls me his girlfriend, that I have a boyfriend. And you won’t believe it, I am still getting used to it. I have been waiting for this for so long, now I seem to struggle to comprehend it. Continue reading
A couple of months ago I tried to convince myself that I need to give a guy a chance. Even if there were little things that I noticed and didn’t like – ‘come on, Anna, don’t dismiss him so easily’ I said. So just to close that loop – I went on a second date with said guy and realised that I couldn’t look past those not so little things. It was a resounding ‘thanks but no thanks’ from me. Yet another one.
And then I went and reactivated Tinder, the app I loathed and deleted about 2.5 years ago, since Friend Guy (remember him?). Continue reading
I started chatting to this guy a few weeks back. He is responsive, funny, interested in me and how I tick. After a few days chatting via the app he suggested to talk on the phone – he called and we talked for nearly two hours. Continue reading
Yesterday I went to the races. Horse races. It was my first experience of the Cheltenham Gold Cup, a famous event in the the English horse racing calendar. My friend is a regular at that race, so invited me along. What a fantastic girls day out! Continue reading
Hallelujah! Having turned 40 a few months ago, I think I have figured it out. Finally. At least for me. I believe I know what I want to do in the next few years (because ‘forever’ seems too long). And I am so, so excited! It feels weird, soothing, calming and reassuring. Continue reading