Friends are important. I couldn’t do without them. They play such a big role in my life, and sometimes they are my saviours.
Every now and then I battle with self doubts, and I question everything I do, every turn and direction I take. Continue reading
All of a sudden the last day of the year is upon us. How did that happen? It crept up on me, without warning – it was only May a few days ago. Continue reading
My honey didn’t make it. 😦 I am absolutely gutted and annoyed with myself that I packed it into my hand luggage and not the check-in suitcase. I nearly cried when I discovered it wasn’t there. Continue reading
Christmas Day. We went to bed with views on Mount Cook and got up the next morning with the amazing sight of this iconic mountain. The weather gods really meant well for us (the righteous and all of that 😉 ). Continue reading
Today is the big day.
If you would have told me a couple of years ago, that I would make the step to the next decade without hyperventilating and panicking I would have laughed at you. Because back then I did hyperventilate and panic. Big time. I really struggled to come to terms with where I was in life. Which obviously was not what I had envisaged for myself. Not at all. Continue reading
It’s one of those moments, days, weeks. Darker clouds starting to form over my head. In my mind. It really depends when I catch myself and reach out to friends to help me snap out of it. I am getting better at reaching out, but still prefer to keep to myself at those times and suffer silently. Putting on a brave face, smiling on the outside. Always smiling. Continue reading
If you have an Apple device you are well aware of the regular updates you have to run to ensure that your phone or tablet continues to run smoothly. The performance of apps improves with every update, ideally. So, even though you may be annoyed that something doesn’t work 100%, with the next update it is sorted and you do not waste a thought on how less good it performed before the update. Update – new version – sorted. So why is it that we beat ourselves up for actions from months or years ago? Continue reading
Yesterday it was the day of ‘the talk’. Gosh, I was so nervous! Unbelievably nervous. I woke up at 5am, wide awake, heart racing. I tried to distract myself but it seemed impossible to get anything done. I finally resorted to doing some meditation. This helped me to calm down and by about 7am I was able to get ready for work.
The day passed slowly. Not only had he not texted yet on where and when to meet, even though he said he would do it, I didn’t do myself any favours and let my mind run wild. A good friend of mine, who I work with, took me aside and had a word ;-). Continue reading
The story with friend guy continues, even though I am not sure for how much longer. If you haven’t read my previous posts, just to recap: we met in November, went on two dates and then he told me, that he wasn’t into dating right now but would like to stay friends. Since then we went out quite a number of times, spent time at each other’s places, cooked dinners and always had a fabulous time. I genuinely enjoy his company, and I think he enjoys mine.
So it was a natural decision to ask him to be my +1 at a friend’s wedding, which took place the last weekend. Continue reading
These have been a few emotional weeks, or rather months. I am exhausted. After a proper and painful meltdown this week I decided that this is not me, I am not this person who is giving in and wallowing in pain and heartache, sitting at home breaking down in tears, feeling sorry for myself. I can’t keep doing this to myself, I cannot let someone make me do this to myself, even if that person doesn’t have a clue what’s going on behind the scenes. 😉 I am (*must repeat it over and over again*) a strong woman, who confronts issues head-on and who does not give up. Continue reading