Over the last few weeks I felt a melancholy creeping up again. This feeling of anxiety, that something is up. Some issue I can’t pinpoint yet, but something that I know will hit straight into my heart. Continue reading
Loneliness
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2018 Round-up or Looking forward
Firstly, apologies for not writing more this year. Eek! I was a bit caught up, and – admittedly – didn’t focus very much on some of the things I love doing. I promise to be better (and more selfish) in the new year. But a lot has happened and I needed some time to adjust and get my head around the new situation. Continue reading
The importance of friends
Friends are important. I couldn’t do without them. They play such a big role in my life, and sometimes they are my saviours.
Every now and then I battle with self doubts, and I question everything I do, every turn and direction I take. Continue reading
2017 – Gone in a flash
All of a sudden the last day of the year is upon us. How did that happen? It crept up on me, without warning – it was only May a few days ago. Continue reading
Travel diary: Days 24-26 – Sydney and Bangkok
My honey didn’t make it. 😦 I am absolutely gutted and annoyed with myself that I packed it into my hand luggage and not the check-in suitcase. I nearly cried when I discovered it wasn’t there. Continue reading
Travel diary: Days 21-23 – Lake Tekapo, The good shepherd, Christchurch and last moments
Christmas Day. We went to bed with views on Mount Cook and got up the next morning with the amazing sight of this iconic mountain. The weather gods really meant well for us (the righteous and all of that 😉 ). Continue reading
Another decade
Today is the big day.
If you would have told me a couple of years ago, that I would make the step to the next decade without hyperventilating and panicking I would have laughed at you. Because back then I did hyperventilate and panic. Big time. I really struggled to come to terms with where I was in life. Which obviously was not what I had envisaged for myself. Not at all. Continue reading
It’s one of those…
It’s one of those moments, days, weeks. Darker clouds starting to form over my head. In my mind. It really depends when I catch myself and reach out to friends to help me snap out of it. I am getting better at reaching out, but still prefer to keep to myself at those times and suffer silently. Putting on a brave face, smiling on the outside. Always smiling. Continue reading
Be kind to yourself
If you have an Apple device you are well aware of the regular updates you have to run to ensure that your phone or tablet continues to run smoothly. The performance of apps improves with every update, ideally. So, even though you may be annoyed that something doesn’t work 100%, with the next update it is sorted and you do not waste a thought on how less good it performed before the update. Update – new version – sorted. So why is it that we beat ourselves up for actions from months or years ago? Continue reading
The talk or What now?
Yesterday it was the day of ‘the talk’. Gosh, I was so nervous! Unbelievably nervous. I woke up at 5am, wide awake, heart racing. I tried to distract myself but it seemed impossible to get anything done. I finally resorted to doing some meditation. This helped me to calm down and by about 7am I was able to get ready for work.
The day passed slowly. Not only had he not texted yet on where and when to meet, even though he said he would do it, I didn’t do myself any favours and let my mind run wild. A good friend of mine, who I work with, took me aside and had a word ;-). Continue reading
My Search for Mr Right 