Loneliness

Over the last few weeks I felt a melancholy creeping up again. This feeling of anxiety, that something is up. Some issue I can’t pinpoint yet, but something that I know will hit straight into my heart. Continue reading

2018 Round-up or Looking forward

Firstly, apologies for not writing more this year. Eek! I was a bit caught up, and – admittedly – didn’t focus very much on some of the things I love doing. I promise to be better (and more selfish) in the new year. But a lot has happened and I needed some time to adjust and get my head around the new situation. Continue reading

Another decade

Today is the big day.

If you would have told me a couple of years ago, that I would make the step to the next decade without hyperventilating and panicking I would have laughed at you. Because back then I did hyperventilate and panic. Big time. I really struggled to come to terms with where I was in life. Which obviously was not what I had envisaged for myself. Not at all. Continue reading

Be kind to yourself

If you have an Apple device you are well aware of the regular updates you have to run to ensure that your phone or tablet continues to run smoothly. The performance of apps improves with every update, ideally. So, even though you may be annoyed that something doesn’t work 100%, with the next update it is sorted and you do not waste a thought on how less good it performed before the update. Update – new version – sorted. So why is it that we beat ourselves up for actions from months or years ago? Continue reading

The talk or What now?

Yesterday it was the day of ‘the talk’. Gosh, I was so nervous! Unbelievably nervous. I woke up at 5am, wide awake, heart racing. I tried to distract myself but it seemed impossible to get anything done. I finally resorted to doing some meditation. This helped me to calm down and by about 7am I was able to get ready for work.

The day passed slowly. Not only had he not texted yet on where and when to meet, even though he said he would do it, I didn’t do myself any favours and let my mind run wild. A good friend of mine, who I work with, took me aside and had a word ;-). Continue reading