Today is the big day.

If you would have told me a couple of years ago, that I would make the step to the next decade without hyperventilating and panicking I would have laughed at you. Because back then I did hyperventilate and panic. Big time. I really struggled to come to terms with where I was in life. Which obviously was not what I had envisaged for myself. Not at all.

And I still am not at a point where I can say ‘this is what I dreamt of’. But – and this is a big BUT – I am very happy with myself, within myself and learned to appreciate where I have come to. Even if it is not what I envisaged 15 years ago, I still have come a long way. So I figured, as it is my birthday today and a make the step into the next decade (eek!), I will congratulate myself for being where I am now. 🙂

What have I learned?

I forgive more.
I respect differences
I don’t force love.
I accept heartaches.
I don’t judge as easily.
Small talk no longer excites me.
I am more open minded.
Sleep is better than a Friday night out.
I sometimes prefer to stay silent than to engage in a nonsense fight.
My happiness does not depend on people but my inner self.

So, Happy Birthday to me! 🙂

I will walk my own path, nothing predetermined and mapped out. But happy.