Firstly, apologies for not writing more this year. Eek! I was a bit caught up, and – admittedly – didn’t focus very much on some of the things I love doing. I promise to be better (and more selfish) in the new year. But a lot has happened and I needed some time to adjust and get my head around the new situation.
Whoop! And eek! I am this annoying person at the moment. I can’t wait for the new year! I am full of hope that 2019 will be special – the next chapter is waiting. Sooo… what was 2018 like?
I had a few disastrous dates at the beginning of the year. Let’s forget about them, I certainly can’t remember their names. I also deleted all telephone numbers of guys with ‘Tinder’ or ‘Bumble’ as a surname.
As you know, I found a wonderful man. And yes, before you ask :-), we are still together. And happy. It was not all plain sailing, bells and whistles. To be honest, at times it was really difficult. I knew before that a relationship needs constant work and compromises. But the two of us are so different in certain cases, it really took all my energy to ‘just go with it and see what happens’. I am not that kind of person, I like to plan and to discuss, I like to consider and weigh up, I like to talk through feelings and emotions. And he – bless him – is the opposite. He broods, he is more the ‘let’s see what the day brings’ kind of guy, and he certainly does not like to talk about how he feels. The situation had to nearly escalate for him to open up. But – this opening up brought us closer together, it answered a few questions and we can take this as our new baseline. We are patient with each other. We know that we love each other and we learn the ways each of us expresses this love.
After more than a decade of enjoying these events on my own it was a relief to have someone by my side: my birthday and Christmas, Bonfire Night fireworks, summer picnics and theatre performances. His family welcomed me with open arms and made me feel at home. This is the first step to ‘creating’ my own little circle, right? Not to talk about my own family yet, but I hope this will come. And I am giddy with happiness that I will have the man I love at my side to kiss me at midnight on New Year’s Eve, and to welcome the New Year together. I had to wait for a long time for this to happen, I am incredibly happy and grateful for it and am soaking up every moment.
I admit, I neglected a bit my personal projects. My training course needs more attention in 2019, my aim is to qualify by the autumn of next year. And my blogs and podcast need more care, I have so many stories to tell and to catch-up on. So please forgive me, I have not yet given up on it. But honestly, I have no regrets – I had to put this on hold to focus on me and my man.
About work. Well, I finally progressed, I was promoted and am super proud that I finally made this move; I have the opportunity to travel and am invited to join exciting new projects.
Without my friends I would have gone mad this year. A different mad, not from dating but from learning to be in a relationship. I probably pushed some boundaries and some of you may have cursed me at times. But believe me, I truly appreciate you and love you with all my heart.
So here I go. Here we go – off into the New Year. I am very excited what it may bring, we hold all the keys in our hands and only need to open the right doors. Ready to write the next chapter.
May 2019 be full of love, fun and adventure, and don’t forget: you’re doing great!
Where we have come
With our Age
Such as it is
And our Hopes
Such as they are
Invisible before us
W. S. Merwin